13.Unsent
dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship
with someone right now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the
future and you want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you and finding out how
old you were when you wrote your first song
dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to
boys who would lie to me and think solely about themselves and
you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used
to say the more tragic the better the truth is
whenever I think of the early 90's your face comes up with a
vengeance like it was yesterday
dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing but open
hearted and emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you
in and pushing you away I remember
how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in
front of you for the first time you were the best platform from
which to jump beyond myself what was wrong with me
dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about
you with the women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me
get away with kicking my own ass but I could never really feel
relaxed and looked out for around you though and that stopped us
from going any further than we did
and it's kinda too bad becasue we could've had much more fun
dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk
for some time and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we
could we were together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about
you about your career about your whereabouts
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